If I kill myself, would it matter?

I go through phases of interest in my life. Once they go away, they're are still part of me, but smaller. I used go be obsessed with Harry Potter and before that it was Pokémon. Now it's the show Friends and I want more than anything in the world to be living in the 90's with a group of friends like theirs. I even switched from a Galaxy S5 to a flip phone to seem more retro. No matter what I do though, noting will get me back there.

My thought process is, when you die, God let's you either stay in heaven or go back to Earth as another person. What if time itself doesn't exist and everything is happening all at once, but our minds can't fathom that so we created clocks and calendars? I would be reborn in the late 70s maybe and I could live that way. I would either have to kill myself or just wait till I die. But I though that if I killed myself, my perception of the universe would no longer exist, and everyone I know and everything else would vanish, and I'd be warped to another universe exactly like this one but 40 years ago.

Just a thought, but I seriously crave to be living in the 90s in my 20s. But for now I'm a 17 year old kid living in a fantasy world.

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